September 15, 2007

It's Strange How Things Work

Recently I moved in to an area and situation I never thought I'd see myself moving to, ever. Turns out, it has been the most peaceful and relaxing thing I've ever done in my life. Further, I am no longer paying someone else's mortgage and am going to be able to save a lot of money over the years.

Plus, where I now live is incredibly peaceful. I'm not surrounded by idiots anymore and am no longer subject to their idiot "mating calls" as I like to call them. The blaring horns, booming bass, slamming doors and cabinets inside their apartments, loud blabbering on their cell phones right outside my window at 11 o'clock at night...I don't have any of that crapola anymore.

When I walk out my door, at any time of the day, I hear nothing but peace and I have been sleeping the best I've slept probably in my entire life. I'm able to think clearly where I now live without any annoying interruptions by some loud, obnoxious sudden noise and that's something I've needed for quite some time. If you don't have the time or space to just think, your brain can become slow and muddled, unorganized and things that don't have to happen do happen because you are unable to think clearly anymore.

I took a chance doing what I've now done and barring any circumstances beyond my control, or, basically, anything messing with my plans whatsoever, this chance is going to have a huge payoff.

I'll get more in to it in a future post with photos. I know there is a stigma, a stereotype and many people would not understand the reasons I'm doing what I'm doing but that doesn't matter.

My best friend gets it, many acquaintances get it and frankly, in the end, the only thing that really matters is the massive rewards I will gain in the future. It may look one way now but it will look completely different some years down the road.

You know, like when I'm retired and living in my condo on the beach and everyone else who wanted to be negative about it is still slaving away at their jobs they hate and continuing the struggle to maintain their house payments.

Sometimes opportunities just fall in to your lap...and that seems to happen right after something that upset my initial plans takes place. Typically, my initial plans aren't exactly how I wanted to go about reaching any particular goal but I've been willing to put up with what I have to in order to reach my goals. Then, suddenly, I'm guided to something that's even better and will help me get there even faster.

I really need to learn that while I can take care of myself and do what I have to do to get there, I don't appear to really be in much control of how I get there. I need to learn to just say, "Ok, guide me down the path you wish me to take and I'll take it" instead of always fighting and saying, "NO! I want to take this much harder and more brambly path because I'm retarded and think I know better."

I don't believe in much but I do believe in God and I think sometimes God just sits back and lets me act like a stupid ass for awhile before saying, "Had enough? Fine, now, let me get you back on to the path you're supposed to be on."

That's how it has been my entire life.

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September 13, 2007

Ahh, So Good To Be Back

Nice to have the keys to my old place again. I was unable to log in for a long time due to a server switch some time ago that didn't like my little accented letter in my name and then life got all busy and I got stupid over some guy and basically abandoned this place as well as some other things I do online.

But that's in the past and I have my little sanctuary again, at long last. Here is where I can say whatever, whenever, however because approximately 7 people know who I am here and of those 7, I think only 2 actually read or will check anymore.

And that's fine because I like the anonymous feeling, the freedom, that I get here.

Because it's been so long, I'm not sure if anyone will actually read here for a long time if ever again. Maybe all those former readers including the 7 who know me think this site is dead. And actually, that's fine, too.

I get enough attention elsewhere. This site isn't intended to bring in thousands of fans. It's just my secret little place to come and say anything I damn well please....a different side that most people don't get to see.

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